My Relationships Wants and Needs.

I have adopted Dotima's ladder as a truly virtuous part of my personal constitution for the achievement of eudaimonia and extending my own life span! My personal attraction toward a transgender woman (MTF) is 100% straight, and one of a virtuous philosophy, and I will attempt to explain this as a wise Sage should. To be clear, I was married once, however, this bond never produced children. It was totally friendship based on Shoepenhouer's "Will to Live" philosophy. A desire to procreate and produce offspring. Have a little part of me to exist after death, just as my parents had done. Thus producing my own small tribe! This never happened, because of a difference in philosophy. She proved to be nihilistic and hateful indicative of the cult of religious ideologues to which she had been adopted!

An irreconcilably biased nihilistic way of thinking!

This marriage is a story that is painfully difficult to tell. However, I will say that my wife was unhappy with the relationship, and found another man to have children with. It took me time to finally conclude that I was just a convenience for her, and discarded to as she felt something better was there. I have always been monogamous in a relationship. but I have become aroused at what I perceive as the femininity of a Transexual women's exotically attractive beauty. And, for this, I was referred to as gay, by my wife's religious community. Ostracized for being something I was not, a paradox that I could not defend against.

The feeling I get when I think sex with another man is abhorrent and unnatural. But, Transwomen, have a dysphoria of self-image and work hard towards making their body match in femininity to what exists in their minds. In other words, their birth assignment gender is not a desired condition because their inner soul or ego perceives it should be this way. What they can see in the mirror in their natural state makes them very uncomfortable and inharmonious in their reactions toward society. It's dangerous living in a shell that doesn't radiate that person's inner beauty as they perceive it. It is because of the dysphoria these males seeking to become female are often more developed in feminine traits than the majority of available natural cis-gendered dating females. To me, they are neither more nor less of a person, but they are exotic and rare beasts.

For me, I think of removing the penis as mutilation, because it removes the most important sensory organ for bringing a person to sexual climax. This climax is when the pleasure hormone reinforces bonding. However, if a Transwoman is truly interested in pleasurable bonding with her partner, she would be better served to have an orchiectomy and use it to climax. I think the relationship would be much happier, but of course, I am not that transgendered woman. However, with little oxytocin secretion, can there be as much eudaimonia in the relationship? I know that I know nothing, but this is something worth pondering.